Rough year

In pounds

Decided that I will check my weight everyday in pounds...and also update every day in pounds. I will continue to change update my ticker once a week in kg.
So here goes:

I want to lose 11 more kg in the next month...I know it seems nearly impossible...but that is my goal! I will do SS as I should do it every day! I will not waiver for anything! I will not waiver for anything!

REgaining Resolve

Yesterday my husband had an arsenal of comfort foods...I was trying to comfort myself. So much has happened in the past week: grandpa died, inceased stressors at work, money issues, etc... So we went and spent nearly 40USD on copious amounts of foods. We even threw some way! Can you believe that?
I made up my mind last night that last night was an exception. I promised myself that I would get back to my original plans and stick with them. Well...the first thought that was on my mind was the left-over rice in the freeze! I immediately nipped that thought and the bud....got up and got on the scale....It wasn't pretty folks. But I was not surpised. So in order to keep me on the path I am going to list what got me on the path in the first place.
1. I am not happy being overweight...no slash that...I am not happy being OBESE!
2. I want to wear more than one item in my closet.
3. I want to feel beautiful when I leave my home
4. I want to buy my jacket! The one I am suppose to buy when I get to 90 kgs!!!! I want THAT jacket.
5. I want to be skinny.
6. I want to be a healthy weight for my height
7. I want a flatter stomach.
8. I want a leaner back.-
9. I want a smoother, sexier ass!
10. I deserve to do this for my self.
11. Food is no comfort...just a temporary distraction.

I will take it hour by hour....minute by minute.

My favourite! My absolute favourite! (Light Bulb Moment)

Or is it? Rice, ice cream, chips, porridge, cookies, cakes, chocolate...shall I proceed?
I just realized that these foods are not my "favourites." It was the feeling that they gave me. The sense of "calm" if you will that made them my favourite. Half of the time I didn't even taste them I wolfed them down so fast! How can they be my favourite if I don't taste them?

Conclusion: It's the not the foods I crave...but the effects of the food.

Goal Update.

99 kg = pair of jeans





95 kg = Movies

2 weeks done!

2 weeks done!
I feel pretty good about that. Do you want to know what my goals are? Well, my first goal is to get to 8 weeks completed! I know I can do it! I will do it.

I am feeling quite tired...I think I will take a nap before my husband comes along...